two hundred eighty three

apparently my blog called and it misses me...

i'm attempting to recommit to blogging because i used to love it. and lots has happened between my last post and now.

and on this episode of

"alana goes back to treatment..."

i took a little break from life itself. it was much needed. during that time i have discovered that:

-people like you more when you're not striving for perfection

-my apartment is next to the party pool

-change is hard

-people don't judge as much as i think they do

-the right thing is often the simple thing, but that certainly doesn't make it the easy thing

-i don't believe in AA's philosophy

-i do believe in the 12 steps

-it's okay to spend a seemingly ridiculous time staring at a cupboard full of food while sitting on my kitchen floor as long as i choose to eat something in the end

-i respond to tough love because it means someone cares enough about me to merit the energy of getting mad

-i'm hooked on grey's anatomy

-megavideo only allows 72 minutes of video watching at a time

-i love green apples and creamy peanut butter

-as tough as wanting something is, the people who suffer most are the ones who don't know what they want.

i called it like it was. and it sucked. but i'm better for it. so if you think i'm broken, then fix me. cuz i'm no quitter.

and i think we can do anything we want to if we stick to it long enough.