Monday, February 26, 2007


this week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week and i am so excited to be able to help get the word out there about how serious and REAL eating disorders are in the lives of so many women in the world today. eating disorders are not about food, they're an outward symptom of other issues going on, and how it all takes a toll on someone's mental well being. eating disorder prevention simply comes down to what makes you feel good as a person on the inside-not what you look like on the outside. if nothing else, take part in supporting NEDAW by consciously doing things for yourself this week (and every week!) that make you feel good on the inside. here are some of my favorites...
Laughing so hard your face hurts, taking a hot, hot shower, taking a drive on a pretty road, listening to your favorite song on the radio over and over again, lying in bed listening to the rain outside, waking up s l o w l y, hot towels fresh out of the dryer, enjoying a chocolate milkshake (or vanilla or strawberry!), taking a bubble bath, giggling, a good conversation with a friend you haven't talked to as recently as you would've liked to, taking a nap at the beach, finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter, laughing at yourself, midnight phone calls that last for hours, running through sprinklers, laughing at an inside joke, laughing for absolutely no reason at all, remembering good times with friends, accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you, waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep, a first kiss (either the very first or with someone new), making new friends or spending time with old ones, playing with a puppy, having someone play with your hair, sweet dreams, hot chocolate, road trips with friends, swinging on swings, making eye contact with a cute stranger, making chocolate chip cookies, gettting a handwritten letter through old fashioned snail mail, holding hands with someone you care about, running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change, watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present, watching the sunrise, getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day, knowing that somebody misses you, getting a hug just when you need it most, knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think, and being happy with the fact that no one can be you as well as you can!
what makes you feel good inside? :)

Friday, February 23, 2007


life is amazing, especially when i realize that the more "perfect" and "in control" i try to be, the less of both i actually am. how ironic is that?

Sunday, February 18, 2007


i noticed.
just as all seems to be
falling a p a r t
the perfect pick-me-up appears
not sought
not warranted
absolutely not expected
it feels good
part of me jumps to when it might disappear
attempt to savor an instant
regardless of repercussions

-i am not planning anything-
-because analysis kills spontaneity-
-i enjoy physical pleasures-
-in every sense-
-and when faced with a decision-
-i am asking-
-why not?-

Friday, February 9, 2007

Sunday, February 4, 2007



[i am fond of]

flip flops in winter- cold, clean sheets- gummy bears- stilletos- b&w photos- purified water- the human figure- not wearing a watch- very high shoes- purell- working my abs till it still hurts to breathe the morning after- hot, hot coffee- sleeping on seroquel- coke slurpees- coats- waking up s-l-o-w-l-y- huge thunderstorms in the middle of summer- chocolate malts, extra extra malt
- seat heaters-
[I am not fond of]
yield signs- people who are judgmental of things they know nothing about-
unbrushed teeth- peas- cheap chocolate- too much makeup- people who are too into themselves and let everyone else know it- over analyzing – cigarette smoke- feeling bad about yourself just for attention- writing on fogged windows- reruns- people who talk too much- body hair
- applebees-

Saturday, February 3, 2007


someone decided people should make resolutions on jan 1
i decided to start feb 3
for today i will be
trying to kick some of those so-called
"bad habits"
looong showers
being defiant
doubles in the morning
being a bit too casual
the lack of water consumption
swallowing gum
getting carried away in spontaneity

not too sure that it will work
but then again i'm not trying too hard

Friday, February 2, 2007



i greatly enjoy it when people assume things.
i enjoy when they know they are wrong but won't admit it.
i enjoy when they are condesending.
i enjoy listening to when they stupidly speak in a superfical manner.
i enjoy when they think they are so much better than everyone one else when they
i enjoy watching people make absolute fools of themselves because of their self-obsession.
i enjoy having them confront me over things they have no idea about.
i enjoy watching them wonder why i don't worship the ground that they walk on.


the thing that i enjoy the most
is walking out on them


first entry...all merely to appease my random or don't read...the ultimate mind dump...i'm satisfied.