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today i got to go up to brighton with loni and marcea to start filming our documentary, and i was shocked at how good it felt just to be up there again. i really didn't want to leave! we saw pika and had snacks in the kitchen and everything! it was AWESOME! it was really weird to have everyone talking about me, but the way everything played out was really through the hand of heavenly father, so i think its important to share our story. and ED prevention and awareness is SO needed in our society today so i wanna do whatever i can to help. i wish i could tell my story now and say that i'm all better. i actually felt kinda bad for not being able to. but realistically, thats just not how recovery works and i need to be okay with that. i'm still trying to find the balance between working hard but expecting perfectionism, and just saying screw it if i can't be perfect... i'm sure i'll get there one day, but it's hard to be patient when you know today is not that day.

[nothing is better than brighton rain]