one hundred sixty

it all started with "please be nice to me- i'm on the verge of a breakdown but am not wearing waterproof mascara..."
here's the recap:

-i need to learn to say no
-i need to give myself a break
-work on a transition from expecting perfection to expecting excellence- there's a big difference.
-if it can lead to rehab it can't count as a coping skill (bummer.)
-what you see is what you get (doesn't that sound a little backwards?) so don't dwell on it
-if i dress like a slob in a hoodie, with hair thrown up in a messy bun, people can relate to me better
-people wouldn't need to be dripping in diamonds if they were happy enough inside
-be who you are on the inside
-people can only be what you'll let them be to you
-you can only imagine what people see in you if you can see it in yourself
-she thinks i should take my meds again but i'm pretty sure the drugs i'd take wouldn't be the ones she's thinking of
-its okay to freak out but don't let it interfere with everyday life
-when did i become so disconnected?
-i'll never believe it till i want to believe it (i want to, but feel incapable. how do you fix that?)
-don't believe the rumors, but it's okay to listen to them because they're hella funny sometimes!
-there's always two sides to a story, but sometimes someone needs to believe nothing more than their side in order to feel okay about things
-stress magnifies core issues
-what's the rush?
-go have some fun
-you should study abroad
-you should get a real job
-i'm glad you're moving out
-the difference from a bishop is they can feel ethical in telling you to do customarily innapropriate things if it helps you in the long run
-this life isn't for perfection
-its for learning a little every day so you can slowly improve in the most miniscule ways that add up to be huge
-gum wrappers should not be chewed alongside the piece of gum
-i have no mortal flaws other than the fact that i think i do
-if you want to ask me something, just ask me
-if you need to tell me something, say it and know that its okay to say it
-you don't need to present opinions in the form of a question
-i'm not trying to change you, but you need to change
-this is not contingent on spirituality
-life's a lot happier when you aren't so uptight
-mental issues are just as real as physical issues and you can't just will power a heart defect away
-its good for non-criers to let themselves cry sometimes
-the last thing said on this blessed day: you should eat something.

what a retarded and pointless thing to say to someone. is there nothing to be said of social scripts and formality? would it have killed her to say a simple "have a good day." ??? so i'm thinking about the years spent in building a little tool box full of coping skills, and finding that i can't think of a single one that actually works. and it frustrates me. so at this point my response is a mere

thanks, but no thanks.